I haven't been posting very frequently here, it seems. But I haven't really had anything 'new' on my mind.
Lately I have just been in a state of acceptance. I guess that is the best way to put it. Acceptance and trust. I suppose it's kind of a combination between Buddhism and Law of Attraction principles, although I would rather keep myself unlabeled. But that is the best way to describe it.
Allowing the Universe to do its magic and enjoying the moment.
Of course, this involves gathering information, being active, and making my own efforts.
But I just enjoy life. I feel at ease and very calm about everything.
I guess I am choosing to make a point of this because, it seems like I have met people recently who seem to be in such a hurry... to get something.. or to go somewhere.
But that takes up way too much energy, and the older I get, the lazier I get about things. I would much rather just soak in the thoughts about how far I have come.. and look forward to where things are possibly headed.. rather than to plot or plan anything.
I was reading something recently, I think a Zen tarot card on osho.com.. and something within me completely clicked.. and it relates to what I am discussing now..
For some reason, I got reminded of a feeling I used to have when I was a little girl.
When I was a kid, I was so excited, I couldn't wait to be in high school. I remember thinking how cool looking high school kids seemed. They seemed to be having so much fun and they seemed like they had fun clothes. I couldn't wait to be in high school. Then, when I finally reached high school, I couldn't wait to be in college. And then..... this process continued for several years, now that I think about it.
And now, I can wait. I had a great childhood, but imagine if I would have soaked in every moment. Rather than kind of dismissing it for the thought of a better one in the future.
I'm not saying I did that all the time, but I am saying.. that I just realize now.. That I would rather relax and appreciate than be in a rush. For anything. And for some strange reason, reading that Tarot card reminded me of that feeling that I used to get from time to time when I was a kid.
But by remembering that, it just solidifies this trust in life for me.
So when things happen to me or for me in this life, I just simply do what I need to do in a particular situation. Everything is okay. It's just life. Things work themselves out. You just gotta roll with it.
I guess I bring that up because recently I heard a voicemail on my telephone. Somebody heard about what I am "going through". The facts are simply this: I need to have a new home within the next 2 or 3 months. Something like that. What is there to discuss about that? I have plenty of time to browse classifieds and snoop out apartments until I find the right one. Heck, I found this place a few weeks after just coming back to LA, not even knowing how it happened to be honest with you.
I literally applied to so many classified ads that I just forgot. And then one day I was completely mentally prepared to live in my car again, when I received a phone call from my landlord.
After being on the road for about 4 months, I've learned to appreciate simple things, like being able to sleep and eat on a daily basis. I am ecstaticly grateful for everything I have in my life. Lovin it.
But when it boils down to it, it's a pretty simple thing, what's required to just live this life.
Just to be able to have those 2 things covered, is a blessing in of itself.
So what's the rush people? Where are you hurring to go? You'll run yourself right into your own grave.
Make the best of what you got. If you want something else, do something about it, go for it.
If you are unhappy with the way things have been going in your life, make some changes.
Recognize your own patterns and break them, if you want to.
But chill out. It's more fun that way. Well at least I think so.
Cristy